Monday, January 26, 2009

On Giving

The following excerpt is from The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran. It's one of my favorite chapters and summarizes my feelings on giving. Much of this book has guided my thoughts and feelings on a few different issues in life and I always enjoy re-reading it because I pull something new from it each time.

Then said a rich man, "Speak to us of Giving."

And he answered:

You give but little when you give of your possessions.

It is when you give of yourself that you truly give.

For what are your possessions but things you keep and guard for fear you may need them tomorrow?

And tomorrow, what shall tomorrow bring to the overprudent dog burying bones in the trackless sand as he follows the pilgrims to the holy city?

And what is fear of need but need itself?

Is not dread of thirst when your well is full, thirst that is unquenchable?

There are those who give little of the much which they have - and they give it for recognition and their hidden desire makes their gifts unwholesome.

And there are those who have little and give it all.

These are the believers in life and the bounty of life, and their coffer is never empty.

There are those who give with joy, and that joy is their reward.

And there are those who give with pain, and that pain is their baptism.

And there are those who give and know not pain in giving, nor do they seek joy, nor give with mindfulness of virtue;

They give as in yonder valley the myrtle breathes its fragrance into space.

Through the hands of such as these God speaks, and from behind their eyes He smiles upon the earth.

It is well to give when asked, but it is better to give unasked, through understanding;

And to the open-handed the search for one who shall receive is joy greater than giving

And is there aught you would withhold?

All you have shall some day be given;

Therefore give now, that the season of giving may be yours and not your inheritors'.

You often say, "I would give, but only to the deserving."

The trees in your orchard say not so, nor the flocks in your pasture.

They give that they may live, for to withhold is to perish.

Surely he who is worthy to receive his days and his nights is worthy of all else from you.

And he who has deserved to drink from the ocean of life deserves to fill his cup from your little stream.

And what desert greater shall there be than that which lies in the courage and the confidence, nay the charity, of receiving?

And who are you that men should rend their bosom and unveil their pride, that you may see their worth naked and their pride unabashed?

See first that you yourself deserve to be a giver, and an instrument of giving.

For in truth it is life that gives unto life - while you, who deem yourself a giver, are but a witness.

And you receivers - and you are all receivers - assume no weight of gratitude, lest you lay a yoke upon yourself and upon him who gives.

Rather rise together with the giver on his gifts as on wings;

For to be overmindful of your debt, is to doubt his generosity who has the free-hearted earth for mother, and God for father. - Kahlil Gibran

Friday, January 16, 2009

got cut

After having a quiet, but fun Christmas and New Year, I was able to get in a few more days of skiing.
The Dr's visit for the MRI results was on Monday the 12th and he scheduled the arthroscopy on Thursday the 16th. That was fast! I wish I could share the MRI results with you, but I can't seem to get a copy of them. He had a very busy schedule and that date was the only one open for him till March so I wanted to get the recovery started sooner rather than later.
So here we are one day after surgery and I'm simply amazed. That was the least stressful of any surgery I've ever had and coming out of the anesthesia was easier and smoother than I've ever experienced. No ill after effects at all and soreness is minimal so I've not needed any pain meds yet.
Initially, he planned on doing arthroscopy/arthroplasty since the debridement was deemed necessary. Once he got in, he noticed that there was more cartilage wear/damage than originally thought from the MRI so he decided to do a microfracture to force bleeding and stimulate more new growth and hopefully faster healing. You can see from the pics that there was quite a bit of fragmentation in the cartilage. This was smoothed out which should cut down on the amount of irritation. Time will tell.
I'm cautiously optimistic, but am a little excited to feel like I'm on the right track to recovery. Let's just hope I don't get too frustrated with the time it takes to recover adn heal PROPERLY and don't cause more injury with rushing the process.

Below are pictures from the surgery. Click on them for a larger version but be warned they are BIG!